Slow and Steady Wins the Race

I used to be a runner.  I decided to take up running again about three weeks ago.  Let me say that it is not going well.  I am getting very frustrated with it.  I never was fast.  I will probably never be fast.  I’m ok with that. 

Now, I am struggling with running at all.  I am out of breath, out of shape, and out of luck.  I struggle to get around the track (with is 2/3 mile) once without stopping.  I know that every time I go running is good for me, but I just feel like I’m not making any progress.

Yes, running makes me feel better.  I just wish that I was able to run.  Now, what I call running is actually a slow jog and it’s getting frustrating. 

I probably wouldn’t care about running slowly and having to walk every 1/3 mile if I wasn’t running outside.  I feel judged by everyone who is at the park or drives by.  People always turn their heads as they drive by to look at me.  I wish they wouldn’t do that.  It seems weird to me that they would feel the need to stare when I jog.  It makes me feel more self-conscious than I already am.

I guess that’s what it all comes down to- self-consciousness.  I hope that it gets better when I lose more weight.